Where does the time go???

Wow I really don't know where the time goes. It seems like I just did a post not that long ago, but in reality its been almost an entire month. Things around here have been interesting, with Mr. Handyman starting his own company it has been a constant steam of appointments and paper work . Hopefully we have everything sorted out and things will start to run a bit more smoothly.

On top of the business start up I have had ridiculous pain flare ups, migraines and over all weakness this month. I'm not sure whats going on but I wish it would ease off for awhile. It is making me very cranky! Almost unbearable to live with really. I mean who wouldn't be a grumpy bear if all you had to deal with was pain, med changes and lack of sleep. I am doing my best to stay positive during of it, but sometimes I have to let out my anger. One thing I am learning is how to take my anger and aggression out properly. I must admit I am guilty of taking it all out on the people I love, especially Mr Handyman. The closest people to us really do end up being our emotional punching bags. So in an effort to be nicer I got myself an actual punching bag. Man does it allow be to blow off some steam. It feels fantastic kicking, punching, screaming, sometimes even scratching it. When I am done with it I am so physically exhausted, but my mind is clear and my daily frustrations are gone.

It feels so good now when Mr Handyman comes home from work and we can spend quality time together. We now share how our day was, and I am now able to focus on not only what I need but on what Mr Handyman might need as well. It feels great to finally be able to give and not always focus on the pain. I know it will always be there in the background gnawing at me, but I finally have the power to push it away, at least for a few hours a day and really focus on whats important, spending QUALITY time with loved ones.